It's better to sit still than to rise and fall

the roots of this topics go long back..well, actually around 2 years back..a very casual discussion about life and fame and career and similar stuff led to this sudden realization..which left me cold as a stone back then and honestly sometimes even now!
all i had asked her that what she wants in her life (mind you, not many of us will know this till date) and she had said that she wan't to be a mediocre..neither an A+  nor a C.. and i was dumbfounded by the simplicity of her answer..it struck the chords of my heart and the music is still refreshing and guiding!!

so.. what do people want in all walks of life:

"a very constant graph is what a recruiter looks for"
"a very constant source of income"
"a constant house of energy"
"a constant struggle for peace and happiness"(money in some lost soul's case)

if all the stir soul and in the world's equilibrium is to attain constancy then why is there so much of agitation and stimulation??
why is there so much of struggle ...so many conflicts and disputes when the goal is common..ulterior goal is the same..peace or death(for those who do not believe in life after death)??
why is life not the same for everyone, how is that somebody rests in a muslin bed while some other doesn't even get rags ..
why is that some beautiful souls do not get to spread there fragrance for long
and a flower withers in thine arms

why is that life is fair and unfair both at the same time !!

after all these and many more unanswered questions..i personally feels it's defiantly to sit still than to rise and fall..rising extracts everything out of us and falling down leaves us with nothing.. rising and falling again and again only to reach the end of our respective roads(which leave to the same end)..it seems so futile!!
sitting still and admiring the glory and graciousness of little things may not sound alluring ..but is atleast not extracting and does leave us with heart full of love and admiration


these questions race back and forth, striking hard the walls of my mind..some get due respect others are waved off in micro seconds!!

YET i know deep within that someday my quest of my thirsty soul will sublime with enlightenment!!

Through the looking glass...

... I saw her and was left aghast, bewildered and a chill ran down my spine. I couldn't look into her eyes anymore. I was chocked, unable to breathe. I couldn't relate. The face which once blushed in innocence seems to have lost it charm. The eyes which once spoke of spark lay dead and cold. Those eyes which  sparked with vigor were now dull, blunt and lifeless. Her soul which was once ethereal lay heavy with the burden of guilt. Her vivacity had turned numb with fear. Her lush pink checks were now lackluster. Those deep and  impeachable eyes that could gauge the upheaval in other souls were unable to even reflect their very own soul. It was so dark and nebulous that none could fathom the depth of solitude and agony. The excruciating pain was clearly evident. It was void and vacuum 
                                                              Consumed with guilt and wrapped with fear, she couldn't move. She lay as still as a stone. Bare,cold and still!




The gaze of her eyes couldn't really meet her own and thus I can't look through the looking glass

tic-tock-tic-tock

sometimes..i just wonder..(well..ee..quite often)..that..in this rat race of today..this cut throat competition aren't we really missing out on the finer things of life..just try and recall.when was the last time you felt the rain falling on with glee and not bothering about your cell phones being damaged..when was the last time you touched a butterfly sitting pretty on a flower..when was it that you felt the dew drops..how long has it been since u saw a rainbow..when was it last that you actually let your hair down and danced like a possessed soul!! when was it last that you actually enjoyed a bath in those rock,ivory bathtubs of your's..when was it lat that you followed your heart..planted a tree..took your family out..(mind you not for dining in a posh restaurant but out somewhere in hills or valleys or meadows..for a picnic)..how long has it been since you performed a rock concert in your washroom!! (:D)..how long has it been since you last cried your heart out..how many times had it been k you had lied for petty reasons..when was it precisely that you slept without something on your mind..how long has it been since your conscience was crystal clear..when was the last time you didn't feel guilty when a buisness deal was done..when was it that you blissfully enjoyed a child's laugh's..when was it last that you loved the gush of wind that blew away your wig( :D)..and how long has it been since you enjoyed the sun with a cup of coffee on a cold winter morning!! when was it last that you were a kid..

                                                      To all the adults i know..and whosoever reads this..don't let the kid inside you die..enjoy the light moments..the rain the sun.the winds..everything      

and seriosly everything..cause the ticking clock would continue doing so..but we have just one..this little life..try not make it a destination..rather a truly beautiful and spectacular journey!!

D VEGETABLE SYNDROME

How often is that we end up feeling like a vegetable (more likely a bottle gourd or similar)..mostly after a conversation that usually is one sided..how often do we end up praying,earnestly, that the earth would rather consume us!! how often do we end up being nothing only to that person who means the entire world to us!! how often we end up suffering for a decision that is not even our's..and how often we land up in some situation that is far beyond are expectation(derogatory sense ofcourse)..how often we end up as a looser..how often we are unable to explain others the true reason behind some thing..how often we end up not trusting people..how often we fail in explaining somebody..

VERY..

and question that arises is not why..because deep inside..in the depths of our hearts..we all know what the truth is..why we couldn't lay the truth naked in front of somebody or why we withdrew from an argument..

Mostly it;s us..it's just our little lub-dub organ not willing to function in the "mechanical way", quite contrary to it's pumping action..quite lately..i could decipher that apart from the usual pumping of blood..my heart pumps and overdose of guilt pangs and conscience prickers..It's these little things in our veins that lead to this vegetable syndrome!!

Ans sadly, the worst sufferers are women..cause in their case..it's not just the little organ but the HUGE social stigma too!!

i do not know how to conclude this..honestly..what conclusion can one draw from a thing as this..an oath probably to not to take **** from anybody!! (especially women)

It's time..high time..stand up..confidently every time you fall. polish  wings..take big strides and fly up..soar above all heights..let the world know..that u have been blessed with the capabilities of "SRIJANATMAK AVISHKARS"

Emotions...

okie..so the very first post of this blog might be negative..but that is how the very frame of my mind usually is..
why is it so that emotions tend to take a toll on us very often..the practicality of life seems to be dwindling away to me..cause emotions,on the front foot,often leave us insane...
they are illogical..unnecessarily painful and don't have the strength to even move a grain of sand!!

perhaps i write this cause my life,these days, my life is like a kaleidoscope in the hands of a VERY fidgety child..but then that's what the blog name suggests..- Expressions.

P.S. All those who claim emotions to be the driving force in their lives..i agree to them..just that they drive me bizzare!